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Mental Healthcare Sucks in the United States

     Mental health seems so hard to treat in the United States. I tried to get myself in psychotherapy about 15 years ago, but that blew up in my face. The insurance I had, which I paid $125 a week, did not cover these services. The sessions cost $190 a session. I also did not like the therapist very much. I felt she was using her own opinions about an action many people do and is widely accepted even as a therapy. Still, she told me people who practice it have mental illnesses, and there are serious issues. I thought it was pretty biased and that she should be more open-minded. I also figured I was wasting my money, and I needed my money because I'm a single mother. Kids are a different story. Kids are always covered 100% for these services until they are 19. Now, I can't get the help I need because I went through all this abuse. I feel I learned how to cope or push it aside to concentrate on my kids, but I rebounded 5 years after I left the last abusive relationship.     

    I made terrible decisions and ended up halfway across the country in the West. It was an impulsive decision, and I ended up in another bad relationship. I think that I am ready for the help I need now. I get irritated quickly, and when people do things that remind me of my abuser, I feel like I am living it all over again. After my first abusive relationship, I was told that I had PTSD and MDD. It feels like being in a cage.








Location: Syracuse, NY, USA

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